So much in my mind but so less I can put it into words. So dreadful it is but so less tear can it be washes away. So much so in this ridiculous but simultaneously reasonable situation that I have to bear all this today. Today, I lost a friend, a true real friend I regard to in this circle who I can relate to and chat with, in contexts ranging from the most stupid things to the extreme intellectual topics across our daily lives to the academic level. It takes a long way from strangers to become friends across the spaces and races but how sadly today I have to realize that it takes so little to end this friendship.
We know each other via an app about half a year ago and we chatted non-stop ever since then. We met twice in HK and each time was a pleasant encounter. I was so confident that she would be someone who I would make friend with ever since the first sigh. In fact it is still true. She is still my friend. A friend who has flown away for a while and will come back soon.
I lost her today.....perhaps just today, just temporarily....perhaps only for a while, like a month. I have this strangest but also strongest feeling and faith that we will meet again soon, in the most unexpected but joyful way. There is a cross on our lives already and therefore we can never walk in parallel lines. More importantly, I will never put a valuable friendship down in such an unsatisfied and unfinished way. This is not an end but only a pause.
And therefore from now on she is my kite. I let the kite fly into the sky freely for a while. I will take it back soon.
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