Fired but no blood

Today is a sad day, although I am not the one supposed to say that. But still, I feel sad. Someone is fired because of a careless mistake in buying flight tickets. Someone has gone, something has changed, irreversible.

Sigh-is the only sign I can release.

Like Kevin Rudd said, at least there she is not blooded. Let not take it too serious. Maybe it is a good thing after all. May god bless her.

Fair enough

Life won't treat me nice, I knew that, long ago. I never get one thing easily in my whole life. I walked through everything single step, whatever on the floor, I stepped on it. That's my life! It asks me to give it all myself first, then it grants me the right to request. Fair enough! I won't get a fortune without hard working, equally, I won't get terrible bad lucks if I haven't done something seriously wrong.

The hope of getting a PR has now vanished. Ironically, I lost the chance because I found out there are many options available. Don't laugh, it's true. Things get dramatic in ridiculous ways and you want to fuck it and damn it.

Now I found eternity in the everything reality. There is no stability in truth.

Okay, that's fair enough. Life, you won't beat me anymore now.

Risk

Who doesn't want to live in the comfort zone? And wants to live in a constant worry situation. But then, everything involve a risk, in some scales, in some aspects. Taking a risk in a decision making is not all irrational, but rather, it is usually the last option left. Life goes on, and decision makings are the steps that carry life moves forward.

I decided to take the rist today. I am scared and worried of course. But I believ I would not forgive myself if I gave up this trying. I have gone all the way to just want to live here in fact. I can't let, not this, not at this point of my life.

After all, isn't life an adventure itself? This step is just one I should take.

It's Christmas time...almost

3 Houses have lighted up their houses in Carrington St. to make up the whole Penshursts more Christmas. With a Church at the end of the street and the cross at the top of the church, everything in the area looks more like in the season especially at night. I walked out tonight and realized that Christmas is almost there and the year of 2010 is going to end as well. Time-is still something that I am unable to grasp.

I am feeling kind of lost after staying here for more than half a year. Why is everything still unclear and hanging around. It's so hard to get a stable life. I realize the fact that change is the only eternity, it's just not easy live with it.