Hot days in autumnn

It has been exceptionally hot in Ningbo. Temperature stays at 34 degrees after noon plus the humidity and pollution, no one would like to go out at these days. I am staying at my cousin's house waiting for the sun to set, waiting for time to pass.

My mind has been very relaxed and peaceful these days. Nothing is waiting a head for me to do. No one needs me or expecting me. I exist, like a particle floating in the air. It's not the regular me though, the one who is already restless and uneasy.

The closest thing to crazy

Sometimes I don't know if it's an affection or infection

If I need the doc or

I want to see a doc

My mind and emotions are certainly dragged to someone on the other side of the world who ironically I have never met before. 

Somehow I feel like I am dragged to some kind of craziness and it seems I am losing my reasoning too. 

If there is a fine line between insane and genius, I wish there is another invisible line between craziness and romanticism. I need the excuse to justify everything has been happening recently. 

These strange days and the stranger

I never had such a strong will to tell another person what has been happening around me. It's always my own business that I deal with myself, everything and anything. But this stranger has caught my mind these days. 

Yes it's ridiculous, as she put it. We never met, I barely knew her neither she knew me before. We just chatted. And we have chatted our lives for these three months. I want to tell her everything in my 30 years life and ever possible things in the future. 

But somehow I know I have to hold on. I have to remind myself the bruise I had before and the potential hurts. No one ever would give me a piece of tissue if I am hurt. 

But then somehow I completely trust this person, this stranger. Her childish views yet sometimes professional comments takes my reason away. I like to talk to her everyday and night. 

Ohh... Stranger...you better take everything from me if you can.