My Life - Literally living alone.

So I have decided to write something about my life as a record of my human experience. First of all, I will write about my living.

I am leading a simple and single life at the moment. I share a very tiny apartment with my parents but literally literally I am living alone. Yes, literally I am living on my own.

Having a stable job at the moment, I manage to have a rather routine lifestyle when compared to those sporadic times a few years back then. Breakfast is usually eaten in the office and brought from a bakery on the way to work. In order to have a healthier diet, I will have self-made oak porridge one or two days in a week. Lunch would be at canteen with colleagues while for dinner, I try to skip it. Monday to Friday, if there is no other business, this is the kind of life I lead from 9am to 6pm.

Keep going

Sometimes I think, there are so many things I have done by myself all alone already. I am used to complete everything I want to do in my life so far. If I just keep going and be patient, I should be able to move out and live on my own one day. I just need to keep going and keep going....

Reflection on myself.

After staying with only myself for one day, I managed to collect my conscious and focus on what I might be able to achieve in life in stead of what I could not change at present. I did some reflections on myself. In fact I often do it to pull myself from being over negative. Despite my effort of keeping a positive attitude, I fall into light depression and melocholy every now and then.

I must keep in mind that I am the only person on earth who can save my life. I must work hard to make my goals turn into reality. I must stay positive since only by staying the correct way, I could attract positive energies and spirits to affect my life positively.

Life is a sole journey. 

Today is sort of a special day in a sense

So I realized that today is my birthday by some messages from friends via social media apps and so I think I should write something down to make a record. Today, is sort of a special day in a sense, right?

I hardly enjoy my birthday or any other birthdays ever since the year that I had that bad experience. The trauma or emotional pain still lingers every now and then and hurts me quite badly. I cannot understand the joy of birthday anymore. I have been learning to move on little by little though. Let go of the pass, the unchangeable pass, is all I need to work out.

Second day at CCBC

Today is the second day working at CCBC. Small office small group, the place is not hard to manage but the people are still unsure. Perhaps it will never be sure. I enjoy the stable working hour as which allows me to make plans for non-office hours. Location is favorable for me too. It's only a short ride from my home to the office. 

Chatting. Yes I am still chatting with people from different walks of life. It opens a virtual world in my suffocated reality. I take time to breath but I breath it cautiously. People come from the cyber world might be interesting but they could be harmful too. They are the most unexpected figures if I ever gonna meet any of them. I will take it slowly and carefully. 

 

若把生活看成一種刁難，你終會輸，若把生活當做一種雕刻，你總能贏

1. 要學會待人接物。與人相處不卑不吭，以更包容的心去理解身邊的人和事。

2. 你要學會獨立，學會微笑，學會丟棄不值得的感情。

3. 你要學會照顧自己，善待自己，而不是將生活僥倖的寄託於外在的一切。

4. 一定要有自己的方向，不管起點有多低，都要坦然接受。

5. 成熟與年齡無關，而是看你的肩膀能挑起多重的責任。

6. 不要對世界冷漠，成熟的表現之一，是能善意和寬容對待世界，雖然它並不完美。

7. 你必須，越來越能夠接受現實，而不是越來越現實。

8. 面對厭惡的人和事，不迎合也不抵觸，學會容納自己不喜歡的事物。

9. 心態決定成敗，你要懂調侃，不僅能調侃世界，也能調侃自己。

從今天開始堅持以下四點。

很喜歡的一段話：「怕黑就開燈，想念就聯繫。今天再大的事，到了明天就是小事；今年再大的事，到了明年就是故事。我們最多也就是個有故事的人，所以，人生就像蒲公英，看似自由，卻身不由己。有些事，不是不在意，而是在意了又能怎樣。自己盡力了就好，人生沒有如果，只有後果和結果。」

1、不要把煩惱帶到床上，因為那是一個睡覺的地方。

2、不要把怨恨帶到明天，因為那是一個美好的日子。

3、不要把憂鬱傳染給別人，因為那是一種不道德的行為。

4、不要把不良的情緒掛在臉上，因為那是一種令人討厭的表情。

從今天開始堅持以上四點。

There are two kinds of coincidences

There are two kinds of coincidences, the kind that happens to you once in your life and the kind that happens to you all the time. This morning I took the elevator on the other side of the corridor and so I met my old schoolmate’s mother who lives a few floors lower in the same building. For some odd reason, we came across in the block at different areas quite often even though I am not the type that goes out often. We use to say “hello” and exchange a few conversations each time we meet. Today, all in a sudden, she told me that she would be immigrating to Australia next month. I was a litte surprised but did not find it that much a shocking news. She has been visiting her son there for couple of times in the last 10 years and the procedure of immigration must have been launched long time ago. I could see all the happiness in her shinny eyes and sweet smile. Wish her all good to her new life on the other side of the world. And I realized that meeting a neighbor in such a context is a mingled coincidence that lies between the two extremes.