Check yourself before you die

1.I followed my heart and intuition.


This is your life, and it’s a short one. Don’t accept false choices. Don’t let others put a cage around you. Try what you want to try. Go where you want to go. Follow your own intuition.


2.I said what I needed to say.


You must say what you need to say when you need to say it. It may be your only chance to do so. Don’t censor yourself. Speak the truth. Your truth.

3.I did what I needed to do.


The greatest gift extraordinarily successful people have over average people is their ability to get themselves to take action – to physically do something about getting from where they are now to where they want to be. And no, it won’t be easy. But in the end, suffering from the pain of discipline while you do what you need to do is a whole lot easier than suffering from the regret and disappointment of never fulfilling any of your dreams.


4.I made a difference.


In life, you get what you put in. When you make a positive impact in someone else’s life, you also make a positive impact in your own life. Do something that’s greater than you – something that helps someone else to be happy or to suffer less. Doing something nice for someone can change the world. Maybe not the whole world, but their world.

5. I know what true love is.

Relationships must be chosen wisely. There’s no need to rush. If something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason.


Love is beautiful and unpredictable. The best thing you can do is to start to become the most outstanding person possible. The universe will know when you are ready, and when you are, true love will happen, unexpectedly.


6. I am happy and grateful.

Very little is needed to create happiness. It is all within you, in your way of thinking.


A big part of this is simply being grateful for what you have. Look around. Appreciate the things you have right now. Many people aren’t so lucky.

7.I am proud of myself.


You are your own best friend and your own biggest critic. Being proud of yourself is also known as having strong self-esteem. Being proud isn’t bragging about how great you are. It’s more like quietly knowing that you’re worth a lot. Acknowledge your positive qualities, and when you come across a quality in yourself that you aren’t proud of, don’t sulk in your sorrows, proactively work on correcting it.


8.I became the best version of me.


Remember, at any given moment, you are in competition with one person and one person only – yourself. You are competing to be the best you can be.

9.I forgave those who hurt me.


Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness. To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover the prisoner was you.

10. I have no regrets.

Follow your heart. Be true to yourself. Do what you need to do fulfill your dreams. Say what you need to say. Be kind to others. Offer a helping hand when you’re able. Love those who deserve to be loved, and cherish the bond you share. Appreciate all the things you do have. Smile. Celebrate your small victories. Learn from your mistakes. Forgive. And let go of the things you can’t change.

I am flying my kite.......

I am still feeling sad but guess in a lesser degree today. Thank goodness to the busy day yesterday, or else I wouldn't know how to kill all the unbearable time. I would never thought that some one would do this to me. I know she had never thought someone would do that to her too.

Kill a friendship in order to secure a partnership! She did it. How funny and ridiculous it is but yet happens sometimes in the reality and sadly so often the friendship is always sacrificed. Standing from her position though, I would probably do the same. At the same time, sincerely, I am happy that she is truly in love. Badly in love that she would do such a thing to a friend. Enjoy it buddy!

So I guess I need a few days to mourn it and many sad songs to sympathize my feelings. I would read our conversations for a few times more, think and thank you everyday morning when I make my coffee, for all those encouragements you have sent me and many other things. All the stupid topics and ideas I have in my messed up mind that I have to write it down here instead of in the chat box.

And in the mean time, I will enjoy flying my kite.......I will look up to it every now and then......thought about the time it was in my hands.....and appreciate its beauty in the sky now......

I lost a friend today.....perhaps only temporarily

So much in my mind but so less I can put it into words. So dreadful it is but so less tear can it be washes away. So much so in this ridiculous but simultaneously reasonable situation that I have to bear all this today. Today, I lost a friend, a true real friend I regard to in this circle who I can relate to and chat with, in contexts ranging from the most stupid things to the extreme intellectual topics across our daily lives to the academic level. It takes a long way from strangers to become friends across the spaces and races but how sadly today I have to realize that it takes so little to end this friendship.

We know each other via an app about half a year ago and we chatted non-stop ever since then. We met twice in HK and each time was a pleasant encounter. I was so confident that she would be someone who I would make friend with ever since the first sigh. In fact it is still true. She is still my friend. A friend who has flown away for a while and will come back soon.

I lost her today.....perhaps just today, just temporarily....perhaps only for a while, like a month. I have this strangest but also strongest feeling and faith that we will meet again soon, in the most unexpected but joyful way. There is a cross on our lives already and therefore we can never walk in parallel lines. More importantly, I will never put a valuable friendship down in such an unsatisfied and unfinished way. This is not an end but only a pause.

And therefore from now on she is my kite. I let the kite fly into the sky freely for a while. I will take it back soon.

Group meeting hot pot

It took me a while to make up my mind seeing them at a time and in first time with 8+ people tonight in TST. Never an easy move but once it's decided I'd go anyway. 

Ever since I downloaded this app and started chatting with people from the circle about 4 months ago, I become more active in making new friends and my desires of meeting people alike had grown as well. 

These people who I am seeming tonight are from a group chat which has more than thirty members. Tonight I am only seeing some of them. But that some of them are very "much" and "enough" for me already.

I have learned to expect nothing ever since I met my first net friend which was a disaster. Very often I think I take things too serious and that eventually leads behaving awakwordly and unnaturally. Although not everything turned out nicely, I have learned a lot from all those fresh new experiences in inter-personal relationship as well as life events that I had gone through in the past few months. Much more ahead of course and this time I am more ready. 

I believe there still would be full of surprises tonight. I have to remind myself here to take it easy, be calm and be myself.