Miss my cat

No one compares to my cat, all the human beings are nothing. We share this interdependence and intimacy in one simple unit, tears and laughter, chasing and resting, all sort of crazy thing between a human and cat. We were so close.

Nobody, but my cat, knows how bad I miss it. Baby take care of yourself.

On the way to work and home

If you walk the same road 6 days a week, back and forth, repeatedly for 6 months, you will not just familiar with the surroundings, you could also recognize some faces. Sometimes, these faces are kind of already absorbed into the scenes. I find bored with everything on the road already, but they are not necessarily unworthy for mentioning.

There is a young tall lady I use to come across at 9:15 am on the forest road. Sometime she walks on the other side to be under the shade, sometimes we are under sunshine on the same way. I would come across a health slim middle-age man with cup of coffee take away if I leave home early or he comes office late. He uses to wear cortex Colombia water proof rain coat which I wanted badly in NZ, while the girl seems prefer neat and casual dressing.

The road between my home and office could be long or short, depending on the weather and my emotions. Luckily, I enjoy walking in most of the time of my life.  

Just wanna be grounded

After all the drifting and travelling, I just wanna be grounded sometimes. I am not a bird without legs after all.

Hanging

My life is hanging around in the air now. My visa expires in 5 months and I cannot work at my currrent job as my visa combines the rule that I cannot work for the same employer for more than 6 months. If I want to get a 2nd visa, I have to work for a fram and strating working immediately. But then, there are so many things I have to follow up at my current job. Although my boss agree to sponsor me for my work visa, but everything is not started. I tried to ask agent and they are all so mean and they worldn't say a words before you pay.

sigh.... why is it so hard just to live the life i like? I so more qualified than so many dumpies in this country.

On air on 10-Nov

Can't believe I got a chance to join a radio show in Sydney. I was on air at 9:30am, 10-Nov, representing the company to talk about New Zealand travelling on 2ac Cantonese Radio Station. The show only last 30min but enough to put pressure on me. First time in my life, my voice gets into the air all over Sydney area, the city I want to call home. I was quite clam at the show actually, as I knew the more I become nervous, the less I would able to express my knowledge about New Zealand, the country I recommend everyone to go for a relatively wild holiday.

Listening back to the show on the computer in that afternoon, I find my own voice so unfamiliar, so not me. Paying attention to the details, I found the way I speak so not smooth, there is something between every single words I said and they are not connected well. I try to think of the reason why. It could be the way that Cantonese is pronounced or my own weakness in talking.

Shitting in Sydney

I miss my car so damn much today. If I had a car, I wouldn't wet my whole body in the pouring rain after work today. It shitting like carzy today. Damn it!

There is no public transpotation between my work place and temporary home, I have to walk for about 25 mins and most of the areas are uncovered. Sydney doesn't rain alot, I used to say that. But I wouldn't say it anymore. It rains so often this year, since I came.

Fingers and toes

Fingers and toes are the most difficult parts of human body to draw. Especially hands, they are so capable in shifting forms and shapes, bending and twisting, every slight movement is a big change. The toughest part, simultaneously, is the most beautiful area.

Engaged Charley and Jay

My friend charley is engaged today, announced on facebook 8 hours ago. This is such an amazing news for the day personally. Good news doesn't come from one friend alone, Heddy is also expected to give birth to her baby son on 13th Nov. Toto is thinking to buy a house or flat with her BF in Melbourne she told me on the phone today. Great!! My friends are all moving from one stage to another, moving their life forward. Good luck with them.

Rainny Sydney

It's been raining very often lately. Showers are predicted over the week. I don't dare telling people Sydney hardly rain now. The temperature has been below average these days too. I like it coo though, 10-20 degree Celsius is the best weather.

I have been drinking heavily lately since I brought this cheap 4.4L box of sweat wine last week. I feel like having a glass every night now.

It's been relatively smooth at work lately, but I wouldn't relax my mind anyway. Everything could happen as things are most unpredictable in that context for me.

I have been reflecting a lot of what I really want to do, if not the rest of life, at least in the coming years. I know the lifestyle I like down at the bottom of heart of course, but there are so many things aren't in my control and therefore I can't really live the kind of life I want straight away. Your boss's heart or emotion is the one of the hardly things you can manage, not sure if it's matches everyone though.

I have got a client today who just wants me to issue the flight tickets and pay whatever the pare I told her. No question, no bargain, no doubt. There are so many things I can't explain logically in everyday context. My clients, my boss and my colleagues, sometimes they are all so unrealistic.

Taurus

Taurus: The power of love is at work today and can make some feel extraordinarily sexy and desirous. That your intimate relationship should benefit from this goes without saying! And if you happened to start a new relationship today, then you can expect it to be unusually intense. You should have a lot of get up and go today too, so you should pursue your ambitions vigourously. www.AstroZone.com.au "Quote from SMH.com"

 

Hum.... Sounds lik a day that I should feel like living lively..... though kind of hard ......