People change, things change, move on with it.

On Sunday, 14 August 2005 10:57 AM, my friend C proof read my CV with the following comments. 
"Hi gurl!
i've changed the layout of your resume to make it neat and organized. your cover letter was well-written so there are just some minor changes i made. good luck to your job search. stay happy and healthy ^.^" from her hotmail to my yahoo. 


Today she saw my CV and said it's a crap. I told her that it was advised by her many years ago but she said she has never seen my CV. She would not advise on a rubbish like this. 


Thanks for the advanced technology though, I am able to trace back the mail with the exact working she has written, that is listed above. 


Comparably speeking, today's CV is so much richer than the old one but there aren't much change in the format. 


This entry is not to complaint about my friend C. I have to thank her forever sincerely. This is to remind myself that everything changes. I should really move on with the trend. The one that was once praised could be regarded as rubbish. 

累

真的好累, 在港的每一天。也許是我沒有福份, 命裡沒有安排我一日可享清福。

回港後沒有幾天, 所住的大樓就開始翻新工程, 從早上九時到下午六時並沒有停止燥音的一刻。住頂樓那層, 就更慘, 工人們把所有的工程都送往天台做, 所以更嘈雜得要命。工人們不但每天大聲呼叫, 而且每個呼叫都帶有粗言。晚上隔壁無良屋主的狗又會在深夜發出嘈音。大廈對著大馬路, 又噪又多灰塵, 每晚睡覺, 我只能開一小點窗, 用耳塞把耳朵塞住才能免強睡。醒來後, 每天都很累, 鼻敏感沒有好過。

離開家差不多三年, 住的都是六人房居多, 沒有私人空間, 回到香港真的好想在自己的牀上好好的睡一覺, 沒想到命運並沒有這個安排。六個月來,我只有幾天能自然醒的, 其他的日子都是被嘈的。完來睡一覺對我來說是這麼的難。我現在擔心的已不再是今生了, 我想我這一輩子是沒有福份睡好覺的了, 我只想死後可以找個安寧的地方長眠。

終於, 我決定要走了, 再一次離開。彷彿永遠在錯誤的時間和空間裡追逐。

我真的好累。 這種累不但是身體上的累, 而且是心靈上的累, 沒有人能理解的累, 寫出也沒有意義的累。

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不知出自何處, 但確包含無數曾經經歷過的心情

Trust me, no one wanted a home as much as I did.

Trust me, no one wanted a home as much as I did.

I was so looking forward to my own little private room in HK after two and half year's long journey. I thought I could enjoy being myself a little time before joining this busy working environment. I thought I could sleep through the night and wake up in the late afternoon and skipping breakfast and lunch. I thought I could get a job and start my moving out plan with the hope of getting a little flat. I thought I could start all over again and throw myself into this cold social setting. I though I could manage. I though I had the will. I thought there was hope. I though it's all alright. I thought.............

Now I realized that I didn't think enough and my thoughts were too naive.