A friend of mine is going to get marry next month and I am invited to attend the wedding ceremony. Yet ridiculously and ironically, such a wonderful event seems bringing me more worries than happiness. I know that it's not my wedding and my attendance actually doesn't mean anything to the couples, but still, thinking about all the steps everyone has to go through over the year brings me an almost unbearable pressure. I don't appreciate those traditional courtesy and ceremony at all. Put it in a extreme way, I scorn it.
Is there anything wrong with my brain? I think I am kinda mentally sick and need to see a doctor for something called emotional disorder before large event. If I have money I will.
My perception of social norms and traditional values seems quite different from most of my friends even though we brought up in a more or less the same social settings and received similar education. What make me so different and therefore so isolated and thus so abandoned?
Sometimes I think people holds similar values as mine are the most poorest group in the world. In most cases, those people don't have to worry about physical problem such as poverty, but equally poor enough is that they will never get mentally stabilized. The group of people might never be accepted by the society as their world view is almost the opposite of the majority group in the society.
Perhaps, this group of people should not exist in the world.
My oldest friend is getting married too, I've known her since high school .. she's only 24!
ReplyDeleteI'm actually against her marriage, and I myself have zero interest in it. But if it works for some people, it must not be that bad after all ...
It's kind of comforting to know at least one friend of mine is not attracted to the idea of marriage (or marrying young) ... Don't worry V, you won't ever need to attend my wedding! At least not in the next 10 years time.